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[ladybirdcrap]

You finally set off from the Bed & Breakfast with full tummies and high spirits. It's well into the mid afternoon, and you have a lot of ground to cover before the next landmark. Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to be possible for you sorry sons of bitches to make it there before sundown. On your way down the beaten path, you come across a dairy farmer's caravan of cheesy goods. They seem nice and homely enough, maybe they'll be willing to help you stragglers along the way.

[Mission: Hitch a ride from the dairy farmer]

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[fairyvagina]

[yall are loud and for the record we're getting along better than you]

[sawedoff]

[impatient sigh. nick you could make yourself useful here]

[now he can't stop her because he'd just look like a dick and people are staring at them way to make the wagon look crazy clara]

[well guess he's just going to have to join her. stands up on wobbly wagon and kicks some milk jugs out of the way, hops off the back. so much for your dramatic exit]

[dices]

[ catches milk jugs with his miiinnddd

why is he always sulking jesus christ don't piss off the milkmen giving them a ride ]

[pareidoll]

[WASNT TRYING TO BE DRAMATIC]
[she just wanted off she was trying to be casual. you just made it dramatic]

[stands in dustrail of wagon and just glares frowns at him]

What are you doing?

[sawedoff]

[everything is dramatic with him]

If you're gonna lag behind might as well have some company.

[pareidoll]

[yeah right]

Fine, as long as you stop prodding about things you don't want to hear.

[starts walking]

[sawedoff]

Boyscout's honor.

[their slow asses are gonna get there so much later than the rest of them]

[oh well they can wait for them. picks up after her and falls in step but keeps quiet]

[pareidoll]

[keeps walking but soon the wagons are beyond help]

[clara and dean have left the party]

[whoops]

[keeps chin up and enjoys...the walk. all they do is walk. this was totally a good idea and it's getting cold. good job clara]

[clears throat awkwardly after like ten minutes]

[sawedoff]

[yeah so much for it not being dramatic. he won't stoop to the i told you so's.]

So this isn't going to turn into an Alive thing is it?

[honestly castiel has plenty of angel mojo to come grab them if they start to hit desperation levels which is the only reason he was comfortable enough with this deviation]

[pareidoll]

What? We follow the road no different than before.

[except they lack equipment idk i didnt grab that shit i just wanted some walking time]

[sawedoff]

[this is what you get for your walking time, you get ditched by the 7mph wagon.]

Yeah, in nipples cutting glass weather.

[i can see my breath, so not awesome. edges a little closer to the shortstack for body heat]

[pareidoll]

[looks him over like i have a parka where is yours and what nipples. eyebrow raise]

I'll take your word for it.

[looks up to see how much sun time they have left]

It might be more of a problem once we lose light...

[sawedoff]

[his nipples, tyvm]

[rubs a hand over his mouuthhh, he is not as much the bigger man as he would like to think he is. the i told you so is imminent.]

We have angelcab, don't worry about it.

[gracious. so gracious. nice going dean.]

[pareidoll]

[was expecting it. still expecting it. watching him expectantly]

Really.

[not in the angel cab bit but as in really you're not going to stick it to her]

[sawedoff]

Nothing wrong with wanting out of all the crap for a while.

[granted she did jump out of a moving wagon which meant he had to follow suit because like hell he's going to let her wander around where the wild things are by herself and now the angel will have to come get them like lost puppies when it gets too cold which is all a pretty inconvenient and annoying way to get some peace which ended up backfiring on her anyway because the douchebag she was trying to get away from just stuck to her like clingy boyfriend of the year]

[but you know]

[pareidoll]

[yeah. douchebag. but it's not like she'll admit it let alone make him go away. it's nice that he's there, she's just worried because their conversations have been a bit on the tenser side lately]

[lets the thought sink in]

You think you're crap.

[bold statement. we're going there. you can't run]

[sawedoff]

[just put it out there, clara, don't edge around it. actually it's kind of reminiscent of castiel looking straight through him and telling him how he felt about being saved, not asking, just straight up telling.]

[what do you even say to that. flounders with some syllables that won't ever get to be words. he wants to evade but she caught him so off guard he doesn't even have a fallback lined up]

[pareidoll]

[well if she edged, then he'd flounder away like the wriggly fish of antifeels. she's good at blunt and has seen enough of him to round out that brilliant conclusion]

[lets him flop around with noises for a minute before taking his hand and stopping them both.]

Take your time.

[sawedoff]

[looks down at their hands and to her, eyebrows twinging. he's at the act irrational and stubborn stage of avoidance.]

Take my time with what? To burst into tears? I just call it like I see it, Clara.

[apparently so do you]

[pareidoll]

[also stubborn, but not irrational]

[doesn't let go and turns to him]

Yeah, but why? You're only creating more misery for yourself.

[sawedoff]

[are you really asking someone why they have low self esteem]
[thats like asking jello why it's jello]

Don't-

[we're veering dangerously into pity territory, it's going to make him gut himself]

This is how I come, the whole screwed up package.

[motions at himself with his non hostage hand the way someone showcases something at an auction. of course he's aware of how fucked up he is, which somehow only exacerbates the thing]

[pareidoll]

[she just wants to understannddddd]

Got that, but you didn't start out that way.

[reads into him quietly for a moment before taking a breath and turning a bit of the sass up]

Dean. You're not a charity case, so stop acting like one.

[sawedoff]

[you are so patient holy shit]

[glances down again and wets bottom lip before looking at her again]

Tell me that again when I get you out of here in one piece.

[in case you mistake it for bravado, that means he doesn't think he'll be able to. he's not as inspirationally heroic as the doctor]

[pareidoll]

[raises eyebrow at him to counter his abyss of pessimism]

You'll be damn sure that I will.

[raises hand to cup the side of his face]

I don't know what hell you've been torn through, but you need to find a little faith. Just a little. Just for me. I believe in you, but I can't do it alone forever. You need to start believing you can do it otherwise you really will fail.

[sawedoff]

[this is an unusual place for dean because he's never been faced with the tenacious optimism of a doctor companion before, it's a little offputting. but she's hitting both cas and sam notes with her faith talk and that's a surefire way to get him to buckle, if not get through to him]

[nods reluctantly into her hand. he can give, but don't expect miracles]

--Okay. Yeah.

[and a little sardonic humor for the sake of deflection]

If you'll stop with the self help book talk.