[are you really asking someone why they have low self esteem]
[thats like asking jello why it's jello]

Don't-

[we're veering dangerously into pity territory, it's going to make him gut himself]

This is how I come, the whole screwed up package.

[motions at himself with his non hostage hand the way someone showcases something at an auction. of course he's aware of how fucked up he is, which somehow only exacerbates the thing]